4/14/2020, 1214PM - Lexi

14 years

A life time of the purest love
Compressed, compartmentalized 
Down to fit inside the ribcage
Of such a tiny being

I often wonder
How the gods
Managed that

The yin and yang of my world
I was unbalanced without both
And became whole when you came together.
She is my sun
And you are my moon

How can the world continue
Without it's night?
How do days turn
Without the lunar cycle?
Tell me, my moonlit angel,
How can time begin moving again?
When everything is frozen, a continuum shattered because for me this is world altering
Little angel, tell me how

Remind me how breath can return to my lungs as I choke on the amount of love bleeding into my chest

Remind me how to close the wound lest I bleed out and lay in a pool of my own innards, unable to regather myself

Remind me how I will be strong against the terrors that reign in the darkest spaces of my mind without your presence to hold them at bay

Remind me how to live, because the sun of my life still needs me

A veil so thin separating worlds
Flickering a prism of scattered light
Into a rainbow bridge
Connecting the other side
As I watch you pass the threshold 
But here you can walk with no trouble.

I had waged a war with Death
Threatened that she couldn't have you
Bared my fangs against her closeness to you
She was my enemy
Here to capture you, steal you away

And yet now, she and I stand on opposite sides of this bridge
Now you are with her
And it is because I begged her to take you
In her arms I saw a sweet release
A compassion to take your pain away
The very pain that I stood helpless, unable to unburden you with
But Death shouldered that burden
She walked you to the other side
Where you feel reborn
A young soul chasing galaxies
In a game of fetch across the universe

Tell me, my little sweet soul,
How do I tourniquet this wound in my heart?


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